**WARNING – I’m going to swear!**
I was going to do a “10 things I learned this week” but it slipped my mind, so I thought I’d do a catch up one now! So, here we go for “10 things I learned this week but last week”….
1. The Dental Services are a bunch of wankers!
I’ve been trying to pay off a dental charge that was wrongly put to them as a jobseeker claim (admin error by my dentist) for about two months now….but all they do is give mixed advice and send paperwork demanding paperwork from me (that has already been done multiple times!). I’ve already said I will pay the charge, I have proof that the claim was made in error (THEY have this proof) and yet they still send letters wanging on about “not finding evidence to support the claim”….That’s because there is no fucking claim you bunch of paperpushing tossers! Let me pay the damned charge so you can stop cutting down fuck loads of trees to send the same letters time after time!
While I’m at it – TRAIN YOUR STAFF! Giving me mixed advice makes me lose my shit with them because I’m frustrated by the moronic way in which cases are handled.Surely you have a set protocol? Surely you tell your staff this?
I get that you have to treat everyone as though we’ve all been robbing off the government, I get that you think we’re all fraudulently claiming for fillings and what-not, I get that you feel like you can look down your noses at us and…..
Oh wait….You CAN’T! Not every case is the same, not all of us are frauds, not all of us made this mess, and as for looking down your noses at us – why not use your noses to stick up your bosses arses in your mission to climb the jobsworths ladder!
Let me pay the fucking charge!
2. When your boss has a meltdown do NOT engage in conversation…
….otherwise you will be stood in his office for over two hours as he cries, tells you his problems, tells you why he’s better than everyone else and won’t let you leave until he’s done blubbing!
3. I get obsessed with projects
I have a new arty/crafty type project that I’m working on at the moment, I have a lot of support with it and I am obsessing over it! Any spare time I get at work I am jotting notes down, working out designs, etc. I just want to get home and work on it!
I may release the information on here in the next month!
4. I want my own little family…
This may surprise a few people as I’ve always maintained that marriage and children were not for me…I’m guessing I was wrong. I’m not saying I want that right this minute…but hopefully in the next two years. So yeah…not sure what else to say about this one other than it was quite the revelation to realise that I wanted both those things more than I ever thought I would.
5. Trusting people is the hardest thing to do…
I have moments when I think everything is going to fall apart with my relationships….I have conflicting feelings with regards to the loyalty of friends, family and my boyfriend. I don’t hide this because I feel like if I do then it’ll just make the situation worse! I am far more insecure than I was before, but I guess this is all part of adapting. My doctor thinks part of my social anxiety is because of repressed emotions from the last break up and that starting over means learning to trust that people I introduce back into my life won’t just drop me.
6. I am a Horlicks Addict
I love Horlicks….especially the chocolate one. I will drink it at anytime day or night, provided it is made with milk…if made with water it looks a little like dishwater, and tastes like it too! When I was a student a tub of Horlicks was like finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I couldn’t afford more than a bag of rice a week (while I did my BSc) but my folks would occasionally get me supplies. Horlicks being one of them. It is my comfort drink.
7. Benedict Cumberbatch is rather cute…even as a baddie…
That is all. Yes Hiddlestoners I said it! I regret nothing.
Oh come on….you let me off with the Whishaw and Menzies crushes!
8. I want to take part in a yarnstorm!
Come on Lancashire knitters, get in touch with me! Let’s yarnstorm the shit out of the North West!
9. I booked a place for my holidays that my ex and I used to visit a lot…
It wasn’t BECAUSE of him that I booked it, I booked it because it’s a beautiful place to go and I love being there. I’m going with my new partner, we’re staying in a part that I’ve never been to before. There will be plenty of fresh air, hiking, maybe a bit of climbing. But I do worry how I’ll react when I get there, for nearly five years it was a place that meant a lot to me for various reasons, and my ex was one of those reasons. While my feelings towards the ex are pretty indifferent (I do occasionally hope he’s doing ok, I haven’t heard from him in ages and have no intention of making contact), I do know that most of what I know of the place is information he passed onto me.
I guess we’ll see…..I’m hoping it is a new chapter. A place to share with my partner, a place we’ll frequent….because I’m not about to avoid the place just because it harbours memories of a whole different time.
10. I’m scared to be 28…
I turn 28 in a couple of weeks (literally) and I’m scared about it. I feel as though I haven’t achieved what I wanted to, that I have so much left to do and not sure where to start, etc. Honestly, with the way I feel about it, you’d think I was turning 90 and been told I wouldn’t see 91! I know I’m being daft, I have no intention of going anywhere soon so I have plenty of time to do all the things I want to. In theory! I also think I’m scared because 28 is the start of one year older, I’ll actually be able to let go of one of the worst ages of my life so far (27 is a flipping nightmare! And I can’t say year as the end of worst year will be July….but it’s not been all bad really). Has anyone else felt like that about 28?
PS – todays song of the day is:
Armin Van Buurin ft Jennifer Rene – Fine without you (not my usual choice but hey ho, blame Nick Grimshaw!)